Never the Right Balance

They told me to stop being so timid, to stop speaking so softly, and that sometimes the way to success isn’t quiet responses made up of nods and smiles. They told me I was too modest.

So I started speaking.

Then they told me to stop being so vocal, to stop sounding like I was aware of what I could accomplish, that sometimes one needs to be silent to be noticed, and that sometimes success arrives quietly. They told me I was too conceited.

So I stopped listening to them.

Cat Power

Finals have finally began, and the spring semester is coming to a close.

My first final was on Friday, and it was the oral exam for French. Like majority of the class, I chose to sing a song… I performed “Cap Diamant” by Coeur de Pirate, accompanied by my lovely new ukulele. Only me and another girl actually brought in an instrument. It was both of our first times performing in front of an audience, and we got through it nervous and slightly shaky, but it went really well. Maybe it was due to the excitement of performing in front of people, or perhaps it was the enormous picture of a fat cat projected on the screen behind us as we were up there–it’s not easy to attribute the success of our performances to any one thing.

First final down, five more to go. The end of finals week culminates with an orientation for the World Science Festival, a French play, and the Color Run Shine Tour! So, not such a bad week, so long as I get past all of the stress. Onwards I shall go, as usual.

Keeping Up

Consistent blogging is so difficult. It isn’t an easy task to post often, especially while balancing many other things at the same time (school, friends, stress, family, etc.), and I noticed I’m beginning to feel less inclined to keep this up.

In light of my recent lack of activity on this blog, I’m going to publish this very short post. Yes, it isn’t much, however, I do not want to abandon it. I added blogging to one of my “habits” on this website I recently signed up for, and it’s meant to help me with my productivity. Thus far, it’s been helping a bit, and I’ve already started a draft on a future post about it. Not sure when that’s going to be finished, but I do want to use the website for some time before reviewing it, so that I can be more accurate about its review. Hopefully, it will also get me back to posting more regularly.


We write to taste life twice, in the moment, and in retrospection.”  — Anaïs Nin

 

Productivity

I struggle with productivity quite a bit, so I decided to try something. For the rest of the day I will log my activities, and then publish this post before I go to bed. I want to see how much time I actually waste, and how productive I am on a regular day at home. Here we go!

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Lack of Sleep

I need more sleep–that’s generally my problem. Or rather, most college students’ problem. I always try really hard to stay awake at all times when I’m at school, especially when I’m in class. I kept dozing off today in art history class, and I tried to prevent it by sitting up, pinching myself, drinking water, etc., but I just couldn’t keep my eyes open. I didn’t actually fall asleep, but my eyes would shut and I wouldn’t realize it until I forced opened them again. In addition to my lack of sleep, the fact that it was already dark out, and that all the lights were off in the room except for the projector and the two lamps that gave off a soft, orange-y yellow glow, made me even more sleepy.

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My First Job

The first full week of classes is over, and honestly, it feels like I’m already much further into the semester. It feels like a lot of time has passed even though it hasn’t even been two weeks, and I don’t know if that’s a bad thing or not yet, but I’m trying to keep myself going and moving forward as best as I can. Moving on…

It’s all about your mindset.

I need to shy away from negative thoughts and influences as much as I can. I figure that if I change my perception, then the way I experience life will also change; I need to be more positive.

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